Day 002

                            The quote in the image above may sound simple enough. Just believe you can do it. What else is there to it, right? Well for me along with others, it is not that simple. If I think about the body I want, I can totally see it. But can I see MYSELF in that body? Sometimes. Most times, it's just a blur way in the distance. I feel like I will never get there. I'm either too lazy to workout, or too hungry to eat in moderation. (Can you say calzones?) So I'm trying to find a balance of how to start this journey. To "believe in myself a little more". I'm going to take it one step at a time. Workout a little bit here and there, eat a little better than what my norm is, and eventually the fat will be melting off when I get into a routine. It's currently 2:17 in the afternoon and so far I have had half of a peanut butter sandwich, and a slim fast smoothie (One scoop vanilla slim fast powder, one cup of milk, and a serving of frozen berries).

           I also walked on the treadmill for a little while, not long at all.. But I figure that walking for five minutes is still better than not walking at all. I'm also going to try to not compare myself to other girls. That will be really hard for me personally. I'm always finding myself seeing a girl with a slim figure, or toned and wearing a tight shirt and shorts and pulling it off amazingly. Not having to worry about rolls or if her muffin top sticks over. See? There I go again. I feel like I can't help it...but I can. One day, I WILL be one of those girls that can wear any outfit and not have to worry about rolls or a muffin top.   

                     Another difficult challenge for me is going to be to not eat as much. I eat literally all the time. From the time I wake up, until I go to sleep. It also doesn't help that my all time favorite foods are pizza and ice cream. I know I can overcome them, though. To be able to eat them once and a while in moderation. I know this because I was once literally addicted to soda. Pepsi, to be exact. Right when I woke up I would crack one open. It was my best friend. It was always there. I would drink well over six sodas a day..A good day. A bad day I would drink at least eight to ten.. It's hard to come clean about this, but I don't even keep soda in my house and when I do go out to eat, I usually get a clear soda. I made progress on my soda addiction so I know I can make progress on my junk food addiction. It will take time. It will take frustration and tears.. But I can do it. I will do it. 

             In a way, I just want to fast forward to when I look exactly how I want to. Where would the fun in that be, though? I would miss my kids growing up. My husband and I bonding and building our marriage. I would also miss myself growing as a person. So in those aspects, I don't want to fast forward. I just am so happy to be starting this journey and that you are here with me. Because even if you are one, or maybe two people keeping up with my blog, that means the world to me. I need all of the support I can get. 

Thank you for reading and until next time, 

               TLFF